Elliana Mercy Brondyke

Elliana means “my God has answered me” and that is exactly what her little life has taught me. We found out that we were expecting a baby (Elliana) only 1.5 months after having a miscarriage, to say I struggled to trust God’s plan is an understatement. God answered my cries in more ways that I even know but I didn’t expect Him to give me another baby so soon…it was hard. It took a few weeks of praying and sorting through my thoughts and emotions until I finally realized God had a special plan for this baby. Mikah and I both knew that we wanted a special name for this very special baby.

Elliana was due on October 28,2015, I thought for sure I would have her early since Adelyn was born 6 days before her due date but October 28 came and passed by with no signs of Elliana coming… a few more days passed by and I began to think I would never go into labor. I never knew how much of a struggle it is to go past the due date! I really struggled to trust God’s timing with her birthdate. I wanted to plan when she was born so I could tell the family when to come and work out all MY details. All throughout my pregnancy I prayed for a natural labor and delivery. A few days before Elliana was born I prayed specifically that I would have her before week 41, that it would be a fast labor, and that my water would not break before contractions started (that is what happened with Adelyn). Well, I woke up at 3am on November 4 with pain that I couldn’t sleep through. I noticed that I had another pain within 15 minutes and then another. I got up to get a banana around 4am because I was starving and while I was in the kitchen I had a contraction that was significantly worse and then another only 4 minutes apart! I thought well this is weird, so I texted my wonderful friend Chaya and told her and she said, “ok, I’ll leave my house in a few minutes” I thought, “well, she must think I’m in labor.” I continued to have contractions 3-4 minutes apart and they continued to get worse. I took a shower to try to relax but the contractions were getting worse. I kept praying “God, I can’t do this all day…please make this fast.” By 7am I started getting nervous because the hospital was 30 minutes away and I didn’t know how I would labor in the car for that long. I decided to try to wait a little longer because I was scared I would not be dilated very much once I got to the hospital since it had only been a few hours. Well around 8am we left for the hospital and it was the most horrible ride I could imagine…I was having contractions every 30 seconds with really no breaks in between. About 10 minutes out from the hospital I felt the need to push but I didn’t tell Mikah or Chaya, about 5 minutes from the hospital I said “I HAVE TO PUSH!” and Mikah and Chaya were shocked. Two minutes later my water broke and Mikah said “Chaya, you have to run this stop light” I was doing everything I could not to have her in the car. We got to the hospital and I could barely walk, by the time we got to the labor and delivery floor I just knew I was about to have her. Mikah was yelling “my wife is about to have this baby!” The nurses quickly got me in a room and my midwife came in, within 3 minutes Elliana entered this world crying! I couldn’t believe that she was born, I kept thinking that was only 5 hours of labor! How did this happen? ….it was God! He blessed me so much with each detail of Elliana’s birth and I am so thankful. Chaya left to go park the car after she helped me get into the room and when she came back Elliana was in my arms…she couldn’t believe it either! We were the talk of the labor and delivery floor that day. haha. I saw God so much in the process of having Elliana and again I was reminded of her name, “my God has answered me.”

I thought it was impossible to love anyone as much as I love Adelyn until Elliana was placed in my arms. I cannot describe how you can love two people exactly the same but I do and it is so much fun. Elliana is such a sweet baby, she loves to smile and she is such a blessing to me. I still have a longing in my heart to know my baby that I lossed a year ago and I know that longing will never go away. But my heart is so grateful that I have my sweet Elliana and I know God wanted her in our lives. He is Creator and the giver of life. I can never doubt His goodness. Children are a blessing and my biggest desire is that they see their desperate need for their Creator. Mikah and I desire to teach them the gospel in everything we do… it isn’t easy but it is what truly matters.Ell

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Elliana Mercy Brondyke

Elliana means “my God has answered me” and that is exactly what her little life has taught me. We found out that we were expecting a baby (Elliana) only 1.5 months after having a miscarriage, to say I struggled to trust God’s plan is an understatement. God answered my cries in more ways that I even know but I didn’t expect Him to give me another baby so soon…it was hard. It took a few weeks of praying and sorting through my thoughts and emotions until I finally  realized God had a special plan for this baby. Mikah and I both knew that we wanted a special name for this very special baby.

Elliana was due on October 28,2015, I thought for sure I would have her early since Adelyn was born 6 days before her due date but October 28 came and passed by with no signs of Elliana coming… a few more days passed by and I began to think I would never go into labor. I never knew how much of a struggle it is to go past the due date! I really struggled to trust God’s timing with her birthdate. I wanted to plan when she was born so I could tell the family when to come and work out all MY details. All throughout my pregnancy I prayed for a natural labor and delivery. A few days before Elliana was born I prayed specifically that I would have her before week 41, that it would be a fast labor, and that my water would not break before contractions started (that is what happened with Adelyn). Well, I woke up at 3am on November 4 with pain that I couldn’t sleep through. I noticed that I had another pain within 15 minutes and then another. I got up to get a banana around 4am because I was starving and while I was in the kitchen I had a contraction that was significantly worse and then another only 4 minutes apart! I thought well this is weird, so I texted my wonderful friend Chaya and told her and she said, “ok, I’ll leave my house in a few minutes” I thought, “well, she must think I’m in labor.” I continued to have contractions 3-4 minutes apart and they continued to get worse. I took a shower to try to relax but the contractions were getting worse. I kept praying “God, I can’t do this all day…please make this fast.” By 7am I started getting nervous because the hospital was 30 minutes away and I didn’t know how I would labor in the car for that long. I decided to try to wait a little longer because I was scared I would not be dilated very much once I got to the hospital since it had only been a few hours. Well around 8am we left for the hospital and it was the most horrible ride I could imagine…I was having contractions every 30 seconds with really no breaks in between. About 10 minutes out from the hospital I felt the need to push but I didn’t tell Mikah or Chaya, about 5 minutes from the hospital I said “I HAVE TO PUSH!” and Mikah and Chaya were shocked. Two minutes later my water broke and Mikah said “Chaya, you have to run this stop light” I was doing everything I could not to have her in the car. We got to the hospital and I could barely walk, by the time we got to the labor and delivery floor I just knew I was about to have her. Mikah was yelling “my wife is about to have this baby!” The nurses quickly got me in a room and my midwife came in, within 3 minutes Elliana entered this world crying! I couldn’t believe that she was born, I kept thinking that was only 5 hours of labor! How did this happen? ….it was God! He blessed me so much with each detail of Elliana’s birth and I am so thankful. Chaya left to go park the car after she helped me get into the room and when she came back Elliana was in my arms…she couldn’t believe it either! We were the talk of the labor and delivery floor that day. haha. I saw God so much in the process of having Elliana and again I was reminded of her name, “my God has answered me.”

I thought it was impossible to love anyone as much as I love Adelyn until Elliana was placed in my arms. I cannot describe how you can love two people exactly the same but I do and it is so much fun. Elliana is such a sweet baby, she loves to smile and she is such a blessing to me. I still have a longing in my heart to know my baby that I lossed a year ago and I know that longing will never go away. But my heart is so grateful that I have my sweet Elliana and I know God wanted her in our lives. He is Creator and the giver of life. I can never doubt His goodness. Children are a blessing and my biggest desire is that they see their desperate need for their Creator. Mikah and I desire to teach them the gospel in everything we do… it isn’t easy but it is what truly matters.

Hope. Joy. Peace.

Hope.

I am so thankful for the hope that I have in life and death because of Jesus. Life is not easy but with God I have hope in every circumstance. I look around and see hopeless souls everyone. The world is full of hopeless dreams, unsatisfied desires, and fearful people. I know that my life would be hopeless without God. He gives hope for my eternal life and for everyday living. Left on my own I would be depressed, searching for satisfaction, and fearful, but Jesus Christ lived a perfect life, died for MY sin, and rose again to conquer sin and death! In Christ alone, my hope is fond! I Corinthians 15:17 “And if Christ is not risen, your faith isfutile; you are still in your sins!” Romans 15:13 “May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”

Joy.

 My life is full of joy. I guess this statement needs clarifying. 🙂 I do not naturally have true joy, I can act happy and even be happy at times but happiness comes and goes. Happiness is dependent on whether I like something or not. My life is full of joy because God graciously saved me and controls my life. God is joy, He takes pleasure in Himself. His plans can never be thwarted because He is in control of all things! He is JOY! No, I do not always feel happy but God faithfully reminds me of the joy found in Himself.   I Peter 1:8,9 “Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy,  for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls.” 

Peace.

I think of peace as being able to rest in mind and body without worry. I have a tendency to worry and dwell on things that could happen or are happening. I am so thankful that because God is sovereign over ALL things, I can truly have peace. When I worry I am not trusting Him. During college, one of my best friends continually reminded me to pray instead of worrying. God is so gentle and patient with me all the time even though I struggle to rest in Him. The more that I grow to know Him the more I will rest in Him. Philippians 4:6-7 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”