Elliana means “my God has answered me” and that is exactly what her little life has taught me. We found out that we were expecting a baby (Elliana) only 1.5 months after having a miscarriage, to say I struggled to trust God’s plan is an understatement. God answered my cries in more ways that I even know but I didn’t expect Him to give me another baby so soon…it was hard. It took a few weeks of praying and sorting through my thoughts and emotions until I finally realized God had a special plan for this baby. Mikah and I both knew that we wanted a special name for this very special baby.
Elliana was due on October 28,2015, I thought for sure I would have her early since Adelyn was born 6 days before her due date but October 28 came and passed by with no signs of Elliana coming… a few more days passed by and I began to think I would never go into labor. I never knew how much of a struggle it is to go past the due date! I really struggled to trust God’s timing with her birthdate. I wanted to plan when she was born so I could tell the family when to come and work out all MY details. All throughout my pregnancy I prayed for a natural labor and delivery. A few days before Elliana was born I prayed specifically that I would have her before week 41, that it would be a fast labor, and that my water would not break before contractions started (that is what happened with Adelyn). Well, I woke up at 3am on November 4 with pain that I couldn’t sleep through. I noticed that I had another pain within 15 minutes and then another. I got up to get a banana around 4am because I was starving and while I was in the kitchen I had a contraction that was significantly worse and then another only 4 minutes apart! I thought well this is weird, so I texted my wonderful friend Chaya and told her and she said, “ok, I’ll leave my house in a few minutes” I thought, “well, she must think I’m in labor.” I continued to have contractions 3-4 minutes apart and they continued to get worse. I took a shower to try to relax but the contractions were getting worse. I kept praying “God, I can’t do this all day…please make this fast.” By 7am I started getting nervous because the hospital was 30 minutes away and I didn’t know how I would labor in the car for that long. I decided to try to wait a little longer because I was scared I would not be dilated very much once I got to the hospital since it had only been a few hours. Well around 8am we left for the hospital and it was the most horrible ride I could imagine…I was having contractions every 30 seconds with really no breaks in between. About 10 minutes out from the hospital I felt the need to push but I didn’t tell Mikah or Chaya, about 5 minutes from the hospital I said “I HAVE TO PUSH!” and Mikah and Chaya were shocked. Two minutes later my water broke and Mikah said “Chaya, you have to run this stop light” I was doing everything I could not to have her in the car. We got to the hospital and I could barely walk, by the time we got to the labor and delivery floor I just knew I was about to have her. Mikah was yelling “my wife is about to have this baby!” The nurses quickly got me in a room and my midwife came in, within 3 minutes Elliana entered this world crying! I couldn’t believe that she was born, I kept thinking that was only 5 hours of labor! How did this happen? ….it was God! He blessed me so much with each detail of Elliana’s birth and I am so thankful. Chaya left to go park the car after she helped me get into the room and when she came back Elliana was in my arms…she couldn’t believe it either! We were the talk of the labor and delivery floor that day. haha. I saw God so much in the process of having Elliana and again I was reminded of her name, “my God has answered me.”
I thought it was impossible to love anyone as much as I love Adelyn until Elliana was placed in my arms. I cannot describe how you can love two people exactly the same but I do and it is so much fun. Elliana is such a sweet baby, she loves to smile and she is such a blessing to me. I still have a longing in my heart to know my baby that I lossed a year ago and I know that longing will never go away. But my heart is so grateful that I have my sweet Elliana and I know God wanted her in our lives. He is Creator and the giver of life. I can never doubt His goodness. Children are a blessing and my biggest desire is that they see their desperate need for their Creator. Mikah and I desire to teach them the gospel in everything we do… it isn’t easy but it is what truly matters.Ell